Never have I thought that there would be a certain time in my very flamboyant life that I would felt empty, detached, and pallid. Never…………….
Never have I thought that time would come I would felt like I was left alone, forgotten and lonely. Never……………
Tranquillity has made me numbed from feeling all that’s there that surrounds my existence. My world seems to cease from evolving with every ending of the fairy tale I created out of false hopes and slouch aspirations.
I never planned it to be this way? Nor have I wished and fervently ask for this?
I have loved for a number of times I can’t recall but it seems the love I’ve given and shared were meant to vanish collectively with all the person that had came, has made a mark that thrush either happily or painfully right through the very soul of me and left?
I fall for every relationship I was into. And seems I haven’t learned from it?
With every heartaches I’ve had suffered and had endured it has seem to become a system, a cycle, a never ending whirlwind of turmoil with every slash of it into my very soul has become a paranoia.
Never did I ask you to love me in return?
Never did I ask you to live with me eternally?
Never did I ask you to bring me flowers nor buy me expensive gifts?
Never did I intend to selfishly keep you?
Never did I expect too much from you as I knew where I stand.
And all that I wanted was to love and be understood by you.
Sometimes I wish that I could go back to time where I could start all over again and have a glimpse of where I’ve made the mistakes and amend it.
Thus would guarantee in having you around for more couple of miles or so to prepare myself when the time would come for you to leave me finally.
But, time doesn’t usually do that or never would do that in errand of a lost, un-savored love.
When you love, do love unconditionally as if there’s no love in the world left for tomorrow.
For when love’s gone, you can’t ask it to come back………..NEVER.
